I stand on the back porch, a once hot cup of coffee in hand checking out snow accumulation from overnight storm, it’s nearly nothing. It’s still snowing lightly, temperature registers at 26 degrees, the sun supposedly risen, yet the sky remains thick and gray as do I.
I stare out and and try to let myself feel something, but I am not happy, not sad, not worried, not scared, not depressed, I feel nothing except the cool, crisp air against my cheek.
Feelings can lead us to places we are not supposed to be. For today I am content with not feeling and just trusting. And that is everything.
Wherever My Heart Lead Me 
At the risk of opening floodgates? ((( hugs )))
Sometimes numb is OK. But at some point feeling the feelings will happen. For me that often happens at the first sign of kindness. Thus, the risk. If you’re not ready to feel those feelings (whatever they are)… it’s OK.
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Feelings can be a hard thing at times. Sometimes you have to decide if you want to open that floodgate!
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It is OK to “just be.” Not all feelings need to be explored; it is your choice to table them if/ until you are ready to work thru them. Wishing you sunnier, warmer skies!
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